Author Archives: tiffinator92

“What is grief if not love persevering?” – WandaVision Love. It feels like the most empowering strength, but also the most debilitating weakness. There is a shadow side to love which is the grief that comes from the lack of a recipient. This grief stems from the consuming need to hold onto to the hopeContinue reading “Love & Grief”

To the Father. From a daughter. Covenant. It feels foreign and antique. Yet, it also feels desirable. A longing for faithfulness and safety in relationship. Something You offer so freely, and I reject so quickly. I am not steadfast no matter how many promises or resolutions I make. I consistently choose my own way, distortingContinue reading “Covenant”

These thoughts are still in process and represent what the Spirit continues to teach me about singleness. I am not elevating singleness above marriage as the better option but merely as an opportunity to be embraced with purpose and fulfillment. I am tempted to lean into the emptiness. The aloneness. The restlessness. The numbness. However,Continue reading “The Calling of Singleness”

These are the words I would say. My final thoughts if I could predict the moment of my physical death. I’m not afraid to die, but I am sad for the life I would miss living because I truly love my life. Ultimately, my life will be so much better because I will be withContinue reading “The Words I Would Say”

My natural inclination is to isolate. If you know me at all, you know I am highly extroverted which means that isolating should be the last thing I am inclined to do. However, we often run away from truth when pride enters the picture. My pride often shows up in the way I interpret howContinue reading “Isolation”

“You trust when it’s safe.” This was the response I received from Jesus two years ago when I asked the question “why is it so hard to let go?” He reminded me that I do not trust, and when I pointed out how I am generally a trusting person, He pointed out my need forContinue reading “Sanctuary in Surrender”

We are so quick to move on. Motion. Momentum. Movement. But what if healing is a lifetime? What if feeling the pain of former loss is not being stuck in the past or a cry for help, but a path to move closer to healing and preserve the memory of the one we are tryingContinue reading “Happy Birthday, Gramps”

Restful productivity. Does that even exist or is it an oxymoron? It feels like a desire that is buried deep, yet it’s elusive and ethereal. Can my rest be productive? Can I actually eliminate busyness and experience true contentment without the nagging restless anxiety simmering within me, prompting me to accomplish something with my idleContinue reading “Restful Productivity”

This is was written in the midst of the COVID-19 pandemic as a way to process how I was handling the situation as an isolated extrovert. Day 17 (4.2.20) I broke the rules this week. I know, I know. I am weak. I caved. BUT…I. Regret. Nothing. I experienced a tree of life and itContinue reading “Quarantine Diaries (Pt.2)”